Something happened just the other day, something that was so unexpected. I didn't think I could love him much more than I already did. But I realized that the love is growing even greater. If emotions could be seen coming out of a person, like water out of a faucet, well I would overflow the sink! I have become much more comfortable with Nolan in the past week. I don't feel like he is breakable anymore, as he is becoming a little chunker. And I have gotten used to this lack of sleep thing!
As of tomorrow, I have six weeks remaining until I have to return to work. I am totally struggling with this, I am not going to lie. I don't want to leave my child for 10 hours every day to return to a place that only brings me a paycheck. It isn't going to be fun to drop my baby off with people who are not my family and have them watch him grow. I have tried to crunch the numbers several times, but each time we end up just too short without my pay. Sadly, I have to return. Hopefully we can find a way soon, but I don't think it is going to be any time in the near future. Fair, no! Reality, for now.
Here are some photos from the past week: