Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Finally Able to Meet Our Gift

I can't believe it!  Less than a week now and our little Nolan will be here!  We are scheduled to be induced one week early on July 25 because of the kidney stone issues.  This means that this time next week, Nolan should be here.  

Brian and I have been talking each night about how close we are getting.  Several conversations have taken place around what it's going to be like.  We both seem to get choked up when we talk about the hospital experience.  We have never delivered a baby a heard his cry, this will be the first time.  Neither of us can imagine what it's going to feel like when we hear that little cry for the first time. 

Believe me there are many other things that we get choked up over, such as:
- Will Nolan look like Wyatt?
- What color will his eyes be and wonder if Wyatt would have had the same eye color?
- The fact that we will not have a full family photo in the hospital, as we will be missing our first son from the photo.

There are so many others but if I list them all here you would think I was depressed and not excited for this baby.  All I can say is this experience is so different than what other parents go through. 

I am already dreading the questions that I will be getting of "Is this your first?", "Why isn't his brother here to see him?", etc.  I have a few Little Brother outfits for Nolan to wear, one of which we are bringing to the hospital.  If Wyatt was here with us, he would be wearing the Big Brother shirt.  It is only appropriate, so we are moving ahead with it. 

Oh there are so many things I am dreading, as they will reopen the wounds that have slowly started to scab over, as they will never heal.  But with the dread comes hope, excitement, love, and happiness.  We will finally be able to meet our gift given to us by Wyatt.

Little Nolan will be here is just a few days.  His room is basically complete, he has a gift waiting for him from his brother, and we are ready to welcome him into our family!


Caroline said...

Keeping you in my prayers so much.

Michelle said...

all i can tell you Megan, is to go with the emotions as they hit you, and they will hit you. but, that's okay. it's part of what this is all about, closing one chapter, beginning the next. i am praying for you and thinking of you all the time. love you sweetheart. so much

Sarita Boyette said...

After all you have been through, I can't wait for Nolan to get here and soothe your soul. Yes, there will be some tough moments. Some questions or comments may hurt, especially the "is he the 1st" one. You are so strong and you will get through it. I'm praying for all of you, too. xoxo

Holly said...

Can't wait til he is in your arms. What a wonderful moment that will be. There's bound to be questions as it is hard to escape them. Just take each one as it comes and handle it however is easiest for you.